As you may have noticed, posts on this blog lately haven’t been as consistent as the weekly content I initially promised when I announced my year of not drinking. While I have found joy in writing this blog, posting once a week was adding unnecessary stress to processing and feeling out my sobriety. I wasn’t reaping anything from that blog schedule. So, I decided to write only on the weeks I had something to say.
For most of my life, I have gone out of my way and stressed myself out doing things I thought I should or needed to do because someone somewhere, sometimes myself, said it had to be done. I also participated in behavior that was destructive or stagnant out of habit. As the fad in spiritual pop culture, though, I want to get more intentional with my actions, and that means letting go of things that no longer serve me.
That idea, dropping what doesn’t serve you, has sort of been played out in memoirs, yoga classes and uplifting Instagram posts, but it’s only something I am starting to take seriously. For far too long, I’ve put energy into things and people that brought back little in return. That feels like a wasted life to me.
Only posting when I feel good about the blog I put together is a step in that direction. I’m also learning to let go of friendships that aggravate me or make me feel bad about myself, and I’m trying not to let worry and panic consume my thoughts when a friend doesn’t return my message.
There are a lot of things in my life currently not serving me – some I am willing to admit, others I am not – but I don’t think this is a sweeping gesture like spring cleaning. It’s a practice and what’s best for me in any moment can change. My only goal is to notice when I am not feeling fulfilled and energize by something and then having the courage to let it go.
I am interested to hear from my readers – what are you giving up that no longer serves you? How is it going? Do you have any tips for me?